dangerous driving

is it me, or are the bus drivers in auckland really not caring how they drive anymore?

its almost 6.30pm and I catch a bus from new market to symonds street. now usually I find bus trips to be quite relaxing and slow. Maby not comfortable enough for me to rest my head on the vibrating wall or window ledge but fairly calm.
Lately, Ive tried to steer away from my usual quick naps due to the violent commotion that goes on when just getting from one end of the road to the next! There is a series of swerves as the bus driver deftly manouevers the bus around slow drivers and drivers parked up waiting to get into the motorway. Sudden shunting stops when the bus driver almost hits a car or quickly drops into a bus-stop either to eject out a passenger or swallow up another.
I often share with other passengers glances of sometimes despair, worry, and even a bit of excitement. I no longer can shut my eyes as I probably will be thrown from my seat, or have to look like a fool when my eyes fly open and I have to grab something or get some footing!
its like rock and roll getting on a bus here in auckland these days!

there was one time when I got on a over crowded bus. I shouldnt have gotten on but I enjoy the view when I am forced to stand next to the driver. It feels like standing on a flying carpet, swooping down mount eden road.
I almost had the opportunity to see what it looks like to a vehicle when it hits someone stupid enough to run in front of a bus... it was so close I can almost imagine it.
Well enough about accidents ive been in enough!!

hanging out

long time since ive hung out in a internet cafe in the city.
The last time was when I started my deviant art account... with cameron =_=...

the chair i am sitting in may be a bit broken, and have some dodgy stains on it.... but its really comfortable! especially since my neck is really painful lately.
it slouches right back, but is kind of perfect? shapes nicely to my natural slouch :) meaning i have bad posture like a slob!!

2 nights ago I saw song online. he is my ex, and I still have feelings for him.
I dont want to get back with him at all. we dont do well as a relationship.
still, I care for him. I want to know how he is doing. if he's ok or not. or if there is anything I can do to help...

we talked for abit and caught up on MSN. he was happy that I was happy to talk to him again.
I did end the relationship myself.

I still think of him from time to time. He really is the best looking boyfriend ive ever had.
plus Im proud he's chinese :3 he has the cutest fob-chinese accent.
and i absolutely loved the way he would say no. especially in a denial kind of way.

anyhow. it was good.

I woke up early this morning, thinking that I was going to get to work early...
I woke up again at 8.30, I was already late. a txt and reminder active on my ph had stopped it from ringing out again. oh well! I planned to go to the medical center this morning to get my bandages changed anyway. I finally made it to the A&M before 10am. it was quite busy so I wasnt seen for about 30minutes. I got my hands x-rayed for comparison and analysis. as of monday those xrays belong to me :)
all up I was finished by 12.30. I took the first bus out and reached work to hand my doctors certificate. Man was I so happy that the kind nurse wrote on the certificate that I was unable to work that day!! So I ate lunch and left. got my hair cut in the city again. I dont really like the fringe...
but Peter was cutting it again. I think he has a crush or something on me.
anyhow. he has cute hongkong-fob-english.. I could listen to it all day...

Katie, CJ, and I will be watching the Dark-knight tonight.
im quite excited. those two are battling it out on WOW right now untill we get in at 11pm...
pretty bad-ass.

the only way is up

while i was recovering at home for the last two weeks, I had plenty of time to do some thinking.
I really love sleeping in, I love staying up late, I love waking up too early and actually going out to greet the sun.
I love bumming around and being able to blog like this. worrying that Im not getting enough sunlight.
I love not having to deal with assholes over the phone. I love not trying to explain over and over the same tedious details.

The last blog/rant I apolgise was a release of some of my bottled up anger.
Im pretty sure im doing the right thing now, leaving before I feel really trapped there.

im thinking in different perspectives now. things are looking more positive. Ive been looking into the natcoll courses. im pretty keen on them... part time jobs are a welcome change. I even want to do cleaning!
Plus I have decided on the spare time that I will be gaining, to develop in my artistic skills again. I want to do a comic and submit it to DMC next year. my friend Kestin will be submitting one to them soon.

On tuesday I had a ... epiphony, a inspiration to go out purchase some books. after work I took the bus to the city and went into Boarders. Im not sure what I was looking for but though about how to draw manga books.
I did a mass purchase. one on how to draw manga:penning characters, Robot:super colour comic, How to Ink, crash course in comics, and The DC guide to writing comics.

Ive read through the inking guide, now reading through the writing comics guide. it is all very good.
its giving me alot of hope. If I do the natcoll certificate course I will learn abit more about how to use photoshop and how to develop some design skills.

I will likely meet more like-minded people, that will be pretty exciting.
its a fairly short course, but enough to get me started. then I may try again for Auckland University...
speaking of which. I got a letter from them today.
it says:Special Admission.

meaning I have to take one of those year long idiot courses...
i think its a course for illiterate adults...
what shame...

guess I wont be trying for july 2009 then...
and I had University Entrance.

one day I will have to call them to find out why I cant go straight into study.

Oh well. There goes my dream of studying under Manying Ip. what a jib.

...

resignation on the 13th

well, ive finally done it.
ive handed in my resignation. im not sure if I have done the right thing or not?
but im sure glad. today was a good example of why I hate my job..

"ok, so you have a oil heater and you are running it for about 8hours over night... and that is just one of your 3 oil heaters. and it is 2400w, calculating this it is costing you roughly about $140 a month to run... perhaps you should use all three less if you dont agree with your $500 bill Ma'am. Im not saying that your children should freeze to death its just no one is asking you to run it for 8hours a day and even if it is on low it makes no difference its still pulling power. No Ma'am I am not lecturing you. (I am simply frustrated with having to deal with fuckwits like you ALL FUCKING DAY like you are so self righteous in your beleif that power is Free and that the bills during winter going up is just so ridiculous. the use of Heaters should be every Kiwi's right and it should be Free!) Yes Ma'am your meter has been read. monthly infact. Yes it has been used for this bill. Oh dear do you have to wait for your husband to come home and read it for you? (Poor you, you insulated and retarded back-wash of a house wife) Ok have you read the Herald they do have a very good article about heatpumps and oil heaters being the culprit of many household high bills? I am trying to help you (you just dont want me to help you)... hang up..

Yes sir we do require that you do a 7 day read to help determine first if it is an appliance that is the cause of your highbill, this will help to avoid you having to pay a call out fee if the meter is not faulty. No sir we do not just provide this as a free service. The technician needs to be paid. What you pay for in power is covering retail and network costs. ok heres my manager (you twat, Heres something free, my boot up your ass)

.... ok so you are not running any heater, you have a excessively large bill, the read is correct, and you tell me you are running a Industrial airconditioner in your home.... (you fail)

... excuse me? strangle me?

... oh we are supposed to know that you moved out of your house 3 months ago? you never called us? no we will not be closing it off to when you moved out three months ago.

Ok I ask you this question because I dont know who you are and who you are to this person. Anyone can tell me that they are this persons daughter. Its part of the privacy act for a good reason. I am trying to help, trust me. anyone else would have hung up on you by now.

...you are only running lightbulbs in this site, we have actual reads which suggest otherwise sir. can you please have another look.

No i cant tell what model kettle you are running in your kitchen (you fucking blonde) nor how long you would run it for.

I cant just press a button and the power would suddenly turn off at your house (although I fucking wish there was a Magical red button to do so you drop-kick)



Seriously, although we are in the age of many wonderful technologies... I wonder why the fuck people still think that some big companies have crystal balls, robots answering the phones, and magic red buttons... I cant beleive the amount of morons that I have had to deal with.

And some people wonder why phone queues are so long. Its because the unsung and unappreciated customer services rep has to take so much shit with even so much as a sorry or a thanks. Just a clunk or a screech when some inbred decides the truth is too much to handle or really cant do the math and hangs up.

one day I am going to write to that damned sideswipe column in the herald and I am gonna say my piece. in the plight of the lowly customer service reps around the world. I hate this job.

its really time to move on when it affects you outside of work.
To all the assholes that have pissed me off I truely hope your hair burns off your scalp.

Bitching over and out.